I’ve said it before…if you’ve ever seen a lion in a zoo? You’ve looked into the eyes of my Master.
Not the hopeless and lost lion, btw, but the proud one that looks at you, daring you to come closer. Just go ahead. Try it. Really. That one that will gobble you up and consume you when you accept that challenge?
That one is my Master.
When we play, it is fierce. He is merciless. I’ve seen videos and such of Dom’s smacking subs with whips, a beautiful swishing and flailing that doesn’t seem (at least to me) as though they are putting all that much force into it…a slow, steady thumping of whips and such on the flesh of the submissive, who lays there and whimpers a bit. It takes many many blows to raise even a hint of color.
Now, I’m not one to judge…not everyone bruises as easily as I do. I get that. I’m very fair-skinned, I blush easily, and mark even easier. I’m currently sporting a fair-sized bruise on my leg with absolutely no idea what I banged into to mark me.
But I digress.
When HE hits me, it’s full-on. It’s not a gentle warm-up tap, but a quick, hard SMACK! This is no porno flick…. I *know* He’s not going full-force…my gods –He’d kill me for sure if He did. I know that He is using exquisite control. There’s a thrill there, even when I am literally breathless with the shocking pain of each blow.
He knows *exactly* how many of those sort of smacks I can take before I need a (brief) break to gasp, and cry, and breath. Sometimes He will touch me, stroke over the welts, feeling the heat pouring off my skin. Other times, He ignores me.
He’s hard, but not harsh. He gives great spank, incredible beatings. We’ve played a tiny bit with Him punching me.
Fucking hurts.
And frigging turns me on. Damn me!
So what was my purpose in spilling all these facts to you about how rough He is, how tough He is?
This:
This is why you need to know He is a hard-assed Dom who keeps me on my toes.
Because He has let me into that steely heart of His. This was His Valentine/Birthday gift to me. And a card.
He went to a store.
He looked at cards, people. Read them and chose a *perfect* one that so reflects our relationship, and that I’m not going to share with you. Funny, I show you all my tits and ass but won’t show that. I know. Chalk it up to my own tender heart. I want to hold it close to me and smile over it in that teeny-bopper girly way, saying over and over, “He loves me! He loves me!”
He won’t say it.
(Okay, I heard Him say it to me once. I was deeeep in orgasmic haze, and He whispered it softly. But I heard it. And will never forget it ever.)
But it is not His way, and I’m okay with that. I like Him, love Him for what and who He is. . . a Big Ole Mean Dom, with a soft spot in His heart for a mushy, womanish nilla-slut.
I’m such a lucky girl.




BIKSS doesnt say ILoveYou a lot neither. But on the first night on our holiday as he hauled me up from where id been sleeping between his legs (face-to-cock, as instructed) he wrapped his arms around me n said those words into my hair. Pure bliss!
Thank u for sharing your tender-master moment with us!
you’re totally welcome, fondles…and that scene with you and your Master is totally hawt! Face-to-cock…? whoa.
Lucky girl!
and he said the words, too? aww…I’m getting a melty here…such a lovely thing, isn’t it?
*smiling*
nilla
Awww, Nilla. We couldn’t afford gifts or cards this year, but we cooked a Valentine’s Day dinner together (the first time she could be that active in many years) that was simple but wonderful. It wasn’t fancy, but life is good in the Gardener household tonight!
Gifts come in many forms, and they don’t have to come from the Hallmark store.
Sounds like you had a gift from the heart, even if it wasn’t in a “heart shaped box”…
I’m smiling for you, Gardener. Lovely, just lovely.
nilla
Awww nilla, that’s so sweet. I completely understand. My Sir is super similar to yours. He’s not much with the mushy stuff…ever! Last night, I wrote him a poem and spilled my heart (which I try not to ever really do, cuz, well, you understand I’m sure, since our two are so similar! ) and he actually responded by telling me he thought it was so sweet and said I love you! I know what you mean about giddy school-girl… Funny how they can do that to us! (I’m not that easy to affect either. He’s got some strange power, idk… lol)
oh, I’m all girly-mushy though I am not “overly” sentimental. I’m kinda like a puppy dog, I guess…I’d gladly follow Him all over the place just for that occasional “pet”… in whatever form it comes in.
That it came in a heart-shaped box and was filled with chocolate?
*PHEW*….fans face…that was…well, I get misty eyed about it, to be sure.
Glad you can empathize with that whole Stoic Dom thing.
nilla
I’m so glad he did that – just lovely.
sfp
I was totally shocked. Completely shocked. And I’ve been grinning for a solid week! Thanks sfp…
nilla
Sweet. Mean ole Dom with tender heart and a soft spot for you. But how could he not love you? You are totally lovable.
awww…thank you sis…that was nice to hear today.
We are definitely a good match, that mean Dom and I…!
nilla
Nothing like a Mean Ole Dom to make a girls heart go pitter patter!
So glad you have this delightful glimpse into his secret spot.. and thanks for sharing with us!
you are so welcome, nancy, and I do enjoy sharing those bits. I had to get pre approval and even HE enjoyed reading it (will wonders never cease!)
nilla
Well, if you don’t want to share what is in the card, I don’t blame you, but, we will be happy with pictures, lots and lots of pictures, and rope. Tip
giggle…you and your rope! and yeah…someday…I’m guessing your fingers are pretty nimble with some of that thick hemp rope….
nilla
That, was beautiful.
thanks…He is really soft and squishy in the core of Him (like Wolf)…but we rarely get to see that side of Them.
nilla
Yeah… Very true. Although, I have a picture to prove that Wolf has a soft and squishy core.
It’s probably a good thing that you’re “womanish”, you’d probably have a whole ‘nuther following otherwise, if you know what i mean.
Thanks for sharing your moment…very sweet!
thanks jane! Gave me a great giggle with this comment.
nilla