So…some of you know…some have guessed, and i just want to lay it all out there.
Sunday seems to be nilla-confession day or something. *grins*
Sir B and nilla came within a pussy-hair of parting ways. Things were verrah grim, and they came to a very sad head…but rather than imploding all over the place…we drew back…contemplated going on without each other…
and (sappy warning here, this is heady stuff…) He realized He would not be happy without me. i had thought He didn’t care, you see. We were very surface, superficial…and i wasn’t happy with that. Coz my feelings went way deeper.
And when He thought i was going to walk, He reassessed HIMSELF…and determined to not let me go without making an attempt to change how we worked (or didn’t work) as a D/s couple.
The last 3 weeks have been…
*pausing for smile break*
…so. fucking. amazing.
We’ve become what i always imagined a good D/s couple could be. We’re friends…but HE is the boss. i have rulz. i have communication.
i got clamps…HIS clamps. You’ve seen the pic a few days ago. i have to wear them whenever i write here…unless i’m on a pain-restriction day. In that way, i connect my pain to Him, and forge my need for Him ever deeper.
He knows i have begun to drink from that well, and He will be the supplier of that intoxicating beverage. My dealer.
We’ve met a few times just to reconnect..sitting in His car, necking like teens. It’s amazing. It’s hawt. It’s so good to be with the one i’ve wanted…and for Him to begin to unleash His Beast…i hear the anticipation in His voice as we plan for our first “new” time together …an unfortunately long time away, in late Feb…but at least we have these little necking refreshers to help us bear up the separation a bit.
And….He did make me cum while squeezing my tit and nipple.
The Man has crazy strong hands….*smiles*
Things in nilla-land are bright and sunny …there will be hills to climb and spanking tools to get used to…He’s promised to ramp up His physical games and i’ve promised to use a safeword if i need to …as soon as i regain consciousness (laughs…j/k!).
Don’t worry though…there are still some Dark Chocolate nilla tales to be told in the days ahead…but you will see a buncha happy ones in there too.
That’s what happens when He says “Sir loves you, nilla.”