Orgasm Denied!

I’ve been busy. Flat out busy. Wildly busy. I’ve not responded to comments in two days (and I’m so sorry…I *hate* doing that to you…you took the time to write to me…and I will respond, I promise), nor have I written anything new here until now. (the joys of auto-publishing!) And it is so late at night now, and I must be up early to head out for my work-away-from-home day.

But I couldn’t go to bed without just a wee “hey there”..so…hey there!

Hurricane Sandy brushed by us lightly – we were without power for 12 hours, but no damage. We got more rain the next day than during the actual “hurricane” event. Figuring that I’d lose power sooner rather than later, I took on another home renovation project which is nearing completion.

I figured out tonight why I’ve been *driving* myself to finish this. I’ve painted the room 3 times, primer and two coats of color, with a paintbrush because the roller was leaving unsatisfactory results. Painting in sections because there was no place to move all the furniture to all at once, AND decluttering the space, rearranging things and generally making a HUGE mess.

The end product is already stunning. A dark room is now pleasant and light and will help my mood during those darkest of winter months.

But why the dogged drive to get the room done in 4 days?

I can’t cum.

Well…that’s not true. I could certainly cum! The truth of the matter is that Master has put the brakes on orgasms for this week…

The first day was okay. The second day challenging. Today was hell. He didn’t even communicate with me much, which was fine, we were both busy …. but I realized that the hard hard work was exhausting me. Then I’d go out to do my evening job, and come home totally beat. Fall into bed and into sleep fast.

Work has taken the place of orgasms.

Ha. Not really. But it has helped me  get through not having them. It’s only one more day before I get to see Him, and we play…and I’ve begged Him…BEGGED Him, multiple times for an O. I’ve even admitted to Him that if He hurt me, even the tiniest bit, I’d cum.

He laughs.

“Oh, this is good.”

He doesn’t usually like when I beg.

But He sure likes knowing I’m desperate.

 

15 thoughts on “Orgasm Denied!

    1. 🙂

      That sums it up, doesn’t it? Sadists. He loves to make me squirm. Loves it when I complain…to a point. Then he’ll just tell me to STFU…and laughs as I moan.

      nilla

      1. Sometimes a girl needs to hear just that…

        “Shut the fuck up.”
        or
        “Just do it.”
        or
        “Because I said so.”
        or
        “Now!”

        There is something soothing about moving from endless choices, to limited choices, to no choice at all. Not sure why, but with each leap a person feels more secure, or at least I do.

      2. oh, I’m right there with you. Not sure if i blogged this yet…or if its coming up…but when he puts me on the wall…i feel perfectly secure. Roaming around the room waiting? I was anxious and nervous …not that he minds that, but one look at me and he slammed me onto the wall so fast…and it was exactly what i needed.

        and i love “shut the fuck up”..

        we’re wired so strangely, aren’t we?

        but at least we can relate to one another in our strangeness!!! (as in..”i am not alone” in this !)

        nilla

      3. I grok. Trust me, I really, really get that. Suddenly….we’re “at home” with ourselves. At a place of acceptance and understanding of who we are. It’s a journey that continues, dreamer, for as long as we do this thing we do. Blessings and joy on your journey.

        nillla

    1. You know how I love/hate/love orgasm denial…but 4 days was…rough. verrah rough. I’m almost as horny as you and Mistress Molly…almost.

      *laughing*

      nilla

  1. And we all look forward to hearing about your earth shattering explosions from your play time. Hugs and don’t Splode too much. 🙂 You gotta be able to drive home. LOL.

    1. I did drive home…a bit shakily…drank an entire bottle of gatorade stuff (which I usually loathe)…and spent most of monday rehydrating! I rarely drink water, but had 3 glasses Monday! 🙂

      nilla

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