Feeling….

…hot (but you all know that already–nilla HATES the heat)

…needy. I’ve not had Master time in several weeks and I’m grappling with my intense neediness. Hopefully we’ll get a wee bit of time this weekend after work one of the two days I work. It wont’ be much but honey? It’s so much better than the nuthin’, right?

…frenetic. I hate when things are so busy I can barely take time to sit and write. I’ve had a bunch of stories flit through my head, but I’ve actually fallen asleep (despite the heat) pretty quickly these last, busy, days.

…stressed. I think part of that goes back to not seeing Master. Isn’t it amazing how just spending a bit of time with our Dominant One centers and calms the mind? The heat makes it hard for me to think, and my job is very physical, so I’m so drained when I get home—but still so stressed. I know you all have those same stressors…family, kids, house, car (oy vey). That’s not a complaint–it’s just — life.

You know what I’m not feeling (and this is part of my stress, believe it or not!)? I’m not feeling horny. Like at all. I *know* in my head that it’s just the cycle, that my body can’t process any more heat. But for a slut who is normally always turned on? It’s a disturbing turn of events.

I’m thinking of you all–and hoping we’ll have more days together the summer closes. I’m not a fan of heat (gee have I said that enough??) BUT…in August, football returns–see? there’s always a silver lining.

Until then?

I’ll continue to be here sporadically. Working to keep up with comments you’ve all been kind enough to leave me. I love when you all do that. It’s like having conversations with friends.

As I was falling asleep last night, I did have a tentacle dream. Maybe my sexy isn’t totally gone….

🙂