Oooh…it’s gonna hurt…

nerves fluttering, restless, in my belly

nerves fluttering in my clit

need flaring deep in my pussy



*needing* an orgasm so bad that I tremble with it.

I want this.

The masochist in me needs this.


(a wee confession)

I always fear the pain.


That first blow on virgin flesh (or so it seems, ‘virgin’, after so long without this)–

the sudden shock as the explosion of hurting blossoms like a tulip in the hot sun.

The gasp

the OOOOOooooh…

the tears.

The next blow will come.

And another.

Until I




in acceptance–

and a bit of greed–

As His toys and hands mangle my body, setting bruises to rise,

welts to flare up

pain to ride through me like a white-hot tornado.

I crave it.

I fear it.

And then when I think I can bear no more–

He will pause. Kiss me. Stroke me with His hand. Give me a breath of encouragement.

And then?


Well, then I’ll fly.

About vanillamom

For over 8 years--(EIGHT?!) nilla and M have been a D/s couple. I'm the "small s" side of that designation, as he often reminds me. I'm silly and prone to giggling at inopportune times. He's a wicked Sadist, who feeds me my drug of choice--pain. My brain is always spinning dirty and dark little fantasies, which I sometimes share with the world. Welcome to the nilla-verse. It's wet and slippery here...with a dragon or two lurking.
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12 Responses to Oooh…it’s gonna hurt…

  1. SirQs MLB says:

    Happy soaring!


    • vanillamom says:

      did…there was some yelping before the soaring…and the sound of fingernails biting into sheetrock walls….

      holy fuck I hate that pink brush…!


  2. Wordwytch says:

    Yes. Happy flight. 🙂

  3. willcrimson says:

    My favorite line:

    “That first blow on virgin flesh (or so it seems, ‘virgin’, after so long without this)–”

    Let’s see… It only takes me about — what, I don’t know, two days? — before I start feeling like a virgin.

    • vanillamom says:

      I have to wait for the bruises to fade before I feel all virginy again. 😀


      • willcrimson says:

        Just tell yourself you slipped on the ice, the rest is a blur. You’ll feel like a virgin in no time. =)

      • vanillamom says:

        literally made me laugh out loud (in my room, thankfully NO one heard me. OR thought it was hyenas or somesuch)….

        Like a virgin…smacked for the very first time…like a…


  4. Kayla Lords says:

    I have no doubt he sent you soaring! ((HUGS))

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