Having a Huff

I am.

It’s horrid, you know.

He’s not this. He’s not that. Doesn’t HE know I need…?

Why is He?

Why doesn’t He?

Like He’s a fucking mindreader, right?

This is nilla, gone a weekend without Master time, and freaking out in her little slutty need.

There is nothing wrong with Him. And I”m not communicating my needs. Not “not communicating well”…just not communicating AT ALL.

So who’s fault is it that I’m in a huff.


Fuck me runnin’.

I need to stop having a huff and figure out when we can be together. That’s on me.


I’m having a huff. And a breakdown. And…frustration.

And it’s all on me.


Pity Party in New England, Come one, come all.

Film at 11.

About vanillamom

For over 8 years--(EIGHT?!) nilla and M have been a D/s couple. I'm the "small s" side of that designation, as he often reminds me. I'm silly and prone to giggling at inopportune times. He's a wicked Sadist, who feeds me my drug of choice--pain. My brain is always spinning dirty and dark little fantasies, which I sometimes share with the world. Welcome to the nilla-verse. It's wet and slippery here...with a dragon or two lurking.
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13 Responses to Having a Huff

  1. sirqsmlb says:

    Sadly, I only had a day with you and sofia…and I was a cranky bitch with my Sir when I came back…I needed some serious attitude re-adjustments…I wish you the same…and MUCH communication!!!


    • vanillamom says:

      Yes. ..and Yes. And there will be a blog about meeting you as well.. one of the high lights of my trip. It’s been a crazy post-visit week. . And I need. ..

  2. Jz says:

    *shoulder bump*

  3. abby says:

    I am bringing the whine…and the wine….hugs abby

    • vanillamom says:

      Thanks Kayla (are you in total OMG mode yet?) 😀

      Sending happy thoughts your way as you head into your transitional time…


      • Kayla Lords says:

        I’m in there’s-not-enough-fucking-time-in-the-day-omg-is-it-Friday-yet mode. 😀

      • vanillamom says:

        LOL…okay, perfectly normal, then. I’m sending a TON of whammies your way…

        and will be holding you both in my thoughts on Friday.


  4. Wordwytch says:

    Lots of hugs. We had a rough weekend. Maybe it’s something in the air?

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