i don’t care about grammar today, so *shrugs* whatevah.
i’m in a wee bit of a mood. not …terribly funky but not far from it. slept like crap last night, woke headachy and fussy today.
no meet this weekend past…all my fault, couldn’t make the schedule loose enough to get the time free. i love my job but would have loved a free hour with Him.
our “le sigh” moment
i don’t mean to depress you, dear reader peep. it is what it is, and in every life there are these cycles. sometimes it works for us to have together time, and sometimes it doesn’t. right now we’re on the ‘doesn’t’ end of the spectrum and it looks like we might not have any time to see one another until September.
i’m away, he’s away, i’m away, he’s away…and it’s so fucked.
it’s also…real life. it happens. if we get the time we get it. if not, then we have texts.
sometimes I wonder if i can really say that i’m a submissive pain slut.
there ain’t been a lot of either–he doesn’t do much D/s via text or phone. and it hasn’t been on the top of my plate lately either.
there is so much vanilla obligation surrounding me just now. kiddo heading to college, other kiddo’s about to start the next grades in school…and i’m the teacher.
and i love love love my family…
but I love love love my master too.
and my work and his work and my work and my obligations and oh my great green goddess.
I should delete this post.
but yanno what? I’m not going to, just so.
so you can see, if you’re a newbie reading, that this IS how TTWD works. there are many days and times of D/s and then there are many days and times of not.
its a cycle and i’m not the first sub to go through it–most of us long-time bloggers have been down this road, sometimes more than once. AND–I know there will be another side, another time for us to reconnect, and for me to be beaten up and fucked and hurt and aching and loving every moment of it…and it will be good, and this will be forgotten…
until it happens again.
it isn’t all whips n chains, dear peeps.
sometimes it’s text boxes and phone calls.
sometimes it isn’t even much of that.
but the circle will draw ’round again.
i believe it.