The good thing is that i’ve learned to communicate with him without being confrontational. (that’s a major step for me in all walks of life, btw)
Yeah, things weren’t great, and I’ve had issues piling up. But laying them out for him gave him the opportunity to handle them his way, while still making sure that he heard what I was saying.
It’s a cautious tight-rope being a submissive with an issue, isn’t it?
He wrote back this morning, and said he understood where I was coming from. That he’ll throw me a bone now and then (that was not a euphemism!) and not ignore me quite so much. It’s really, really hard for both of us as we’re both working many days and virtually no free time to even think about spending time with one another. Play time? Pfft. Yeah. Right. I was hoping that this summer we’d have time, but my schedule isn’t easing up at all, nor is his. So we’ll continue to make it work as best we can. I love him…and suspect he feels the same though he’d never say it out loud. That’s just the kind of Dom he is. So things won’t change *much* but I didn’t need them too, not much. I like who he is, and accept that (you can’t make someone be what they’re not, after all) he’ll always be parsimonious with his praises. If I didn’t accept that, I’d have been gone years ago, right? We’re not falling right back into the same-old, same-old, but we are pushing forward.
And maybe I’ll get to see him before the Fall (sigh)–and that’s 100% on me, btw. At least we know where we stand. And HE knows how i’ve been feeling about things. (Doms are not mind readers, so I’ve discovered! He needs to know what is circling in my head.)
And…it’s HNT day. What better way to heave a sigh of relief than with a tity pic? Guys get morning wood…and nilla gets morning nipple…!
Thanks, everyone, for your kind words of support. I really wasn’t sure if we’d just call it a day and say we were done. And we’re not, and life is good.